Capturing Images

I want to lay in a daisy strewn field,
feeling the sunshine on my face and the
blades of grass between my fingertips.

I want to jump from the highest cliff into the
tumbling spray of salty ocean waves beneath.
To feel the cool water hit my arms and legs,
seeping into my skin
like a cookie in milk.
To let my hair become
black with the sea.

Let my heart soar with freedom.

Amaranthine

To feel so endless,
like the world is all around you
and you are nothing but
an infamous skeleton.
Crackling in the moonlight
to the tales of your century.
As if you could dance,
twist, twirl,
all the way across the ocean
to crash against the next shore
breaking into pieces
which lay strewn across entire continents.
because you are endless.

Rainy Daze

Always a slow alphabet of rain

falling on me from above

and puddles form in footstep patterns

leading me back where I came from.

It doesn’t matter anymore, only this downpour.

Seven icy drips hit my face,

my eyelids, cheekbones, and lips.

I am surrounded by water,

and it’s beautiful.

Once more I feel at home

no worry, no stress, just simplicity.

I watch as I come up to the tree covered park,

trees dripping with spray and ponds forming in the shadows.

I long to stay, to seep up the sweetness of this evening.

but alas, it will all be over too soon,

I will drag my way out of this bliss,

back to my busy life,

to my worries and fears.

I sit down on a soaked bench.

right on top of the water bubbling up in a dome

and feel it seep into my jeans.

My clothes are all soaked now

but it doesn’t matter

because it’s like I am one with nature,

with the rain, with the air around me.

Water droplets cover my palms

even when I wipe them around

they choose to stay.

I feel it,

all the emotions I have held up

pouring out like the rain flooding down on me.

I let the first tears drop.

They land most likely on my knees

but I have no way of knowing.

Tear drops mix with rain drops,

so I cannot count my tears.

My body shakes with a steady shiver

from the nape of my neck to my tip toes,

and I feel the heat running down my cheeks

Becoming stronger.

I let myself go..

I let my face look up to the sky and

I sob with the earth,

hot and cold like yin and yang,

and in this moment

I feel endless.

As if I am happy and sad and scared,

All at once.

But I don’t truly feel any of these emotions,

only relief.

For this time I have taken to come to my senses,

and let it all out,

grasp some reality and hold on tight,

open myself up and lay here

Unhinged.

Poem

Prayer

I welcome the wild fall,

gazing at the world below me.

So precious.

I am flung to the left

on a pale breeze.

I do know this is life.

I spread my wings and

just let myself float.

Eyes like sugar,

sweet and craving.

Castle of Shadows and Secrets

Trees stare down at me,

dark and ominous

from the edges of this dusty path I walk down.

It must be evening, approaching night

because they cast spider web shadows

with their boney branches

under the overcast sky

I reach the end of the road to find a looming castle.

It appears empty, left, forgotten.

A gnawing curiosity drives me

to the huge wooden doors.

I heave one open crawling into the

cold, deep, darkness.

Endless hallways in every direction

with windows letting in stark moonlight.

The place is damp and frozen with stone.

Fear seeps through the dead walls into my soul,

but there’s no turning back.

I choose the path straight ahead,

a large staircase winding around the walls.

Each step is now muted with the deep

red carpet covering the stairs.

I hold the smooth banister and

peek around the corner to the next floor up.

The second floor is much like the first,

but more closed off,

more confined,

more shadowed.

Startled, I spin to a clatter behind me.

On the steps below are two guards staring up.

Menacing stances equipped with burnished spears.

I cannot see much under their helmets,

but I am quick to notice their white boney wrists.

I spin back up the stairs and

set off to the left to be met by two more guards.

One of these two is missing a helmet

And I am revealed the complete horrible truth.

Empty eye sockets and glistening teeth.

The smoothness of his skull glowing in the moonlight.

For a moment I am stuck with fear,

my small body grounded.

They begin to lunge forward and

I flip around to run the opposite way,

hardly missing the claws of a skeleton.

I run straight,

Trying not to look back.

I can’t help it.

I glance over my shoulder to see four chasing me,

and more joining in from the staircase.

Silver armor clanking up and down, brandishing spears

My world becomes bright,

then dark,

and bright again as I pass the stacks of windows.

This reminds me of long car rides,

I wish I could close my eyes

And wake up there

Far away from here

Far away from harm.

I can’t run forever, my lungs burn for oxygen

My body telling me to stop.

I feel as if I have been running for hours,

The empty hallways never end,

They flip and turn,

Always revealing a new path.

I spot a door cracked open,

I rush inside and slam it shut behind me, locking it quickly.

The room is small and lit dimly with candles.

I see no way out.

The pounding on the door begins

 I sink to the icy floor in defeat,

Sucking air in and out of my lungs.

I finally close my eyes.

It’s over.

On the opposite wall lies a small grate,

maybe my only escape.

I pry the grate from the wall in desperation and shove it to the side.

Crawling into the small tunnel is easy, I fit perfectly.

My heart leaps as I hear a loud CLANG

the door has been breached.

With my last glance back I see a guards face,

glaring down the tunnel at me.

They are too big to fit, about twice my size.

I continue forward until I reach the source of the light.

A glowing red gem, encompassed by a sparkling skull.

I feel drawn to the power of the light,

entranced,

yearning to know what it is.

I reach out to touch it and am suddenly shaking

As the floor rumbles and rotates like a revolving door.

I find myself in a large room.

At first I notice the many candles,

until my sight wanders further.

I see the giant stairs,

At the top is a throne,

stone like everything else but fixed with jewels around the edges.

The resting place for a glaring queen.

She wears a giant black dress,

So long is flows down the steps.

Her beautiful crown has spikes sharp enough to kill.

I stand facing her with the crystal skull in my arms,

Frozen.

Don't you Forget Me

Don't you forget me

but leave me drying softly.

I don't want anything to do with you.

Fight me,

don't you love me.

save me from

this place i've gotten into.

Wouldn't you like,

like to feel calmer.

like to be better

off with family.

Kiss our soft inclined cheekbones,

don't let your thoughts fool you.

Just hold us and let your tears fall freely.

I do miss you,

I wish we knew better

of a sooner happy ending

and a heartfelt welcoming

give me all you ever wanted

and feel the warmth entering your soul.

i am yours

as long as your yearning is pure.